Here are the pictures I was talking about!

April 13, 2012

Where does one begin, well I guess you just start…
What was supposed to be a quick in-and-out procedure with my sister-in-law, Michelle, turned into her near death experience. Lost time, lost days into weeks. A place of disbelief, a place of emotions that rise and fall into the abyss.
The clock is ticking as everyone prays and hopes for the miracle between time and space. As the unknown of each day comes to the end and the anticipation of each procedure Michelle’s body can embrace. Another visit to the OR, another chemical of a toxic time-bomb into her small body, another procedure. How much can a small framed body withstand before it says “enough”?

As we all continue to recite “Every cell is 100% healthy and whole.”
Trusting the outcome
Knowing that being so directly connected to our ascended masters, guardian angels, god and goddesses, and all of the animal allies, crystal allies, God overseeing the entire journey of the miracle that unfolds in his time, not our time, which I know has no meaning, just a human’s clock ticking.
The doctors worked diligently to put 16 pints of blood back into her as well as fill her up with so much fluid to keep all her organs working. While her heart was ready to give out in the middle of it all, they put a camera down her neck to receive a true reading back to them, not trusting the computer read outs 100%. All of these procedures were thought out carefully, discussed among each individual doctor’s expertise as we all had to TRUST, TRUST, and TRUST that everything will be smooth and positive.

I applied every healing modality that I knew and shared the angel Raphael prayer with everyone. Everyone placed Michelle in their community prayer groups as well as each one of us just praying for her to be 100% healthy and whole. It was very hard to watch as well as to talk about this. While Michelle’s body always spiking with the fevers and the sounds of all the computers beeping at you. We all had to know that Michelle had a lot more work here to be with her beautiful children, husband, and her family. Love heals and that is where the miracle lies. When you live your life that way it truly magnifies, intensifies, and amplifies the energy “to help and heal.”

When I left Michelle that night before she went into OR in the morning I completely surrounded her in a blanket of emerald green energy with Arch Angel Raphael and all of the ascended masters for a 100% healing in the OR.
That night I jumped out of my bed, awakened to 333 staring at me and I said, “What are you trying to communicate to me?” I began looking for my Angel Numbers book by Doreen Virtue to look up the message behind the number 333, but I had left the book at work. Well to much of my surprise, when reading my message at work it read “You are completely surrounded, protected, loved, and guided by the benevolent Ascended Masters.”

I knew in my heart that I had to give another energy healing that next morning so I quickly got back to her early. When I started driving the car to I-84, a block from our home as I looked up for my red tailed hawk on the cross of the church I couldn’t believe my eyes. I pulled over and jumped out of the car and said “Oh my god, where have you been?! You haven’t been here since last year when my dad was leaving us and I am so grateful to have you back. I need every bit of your power to send to Michelle for a full recovery. Just give me all of your strength and power.” I looked down and as I looked up again she was gone, gone, like WOW, did I really just see this? But yes, I did. I felt all of the energy as well.

Well I quickly got to Hartford Hospital while the doctors were unplugging all of the wires hooked up to Michelle . As I sent all of my healing energy into her body, Michelle opened her eyes, reached for my hand, bringing it to her face. I knew she felt my energy as I explained to her, “Just stay calm. All of the angels and Ascended Masters are here.” She heard me and allowed the guides to be with her as she left for the OR again. Anthony, Melissa and I prayed for a speedy turn around on the park bench outside the hospital, and what was supposed to be a five hour procedure only took three hours, with the doctors not taking out Michelle’s ovaries but removing the Fibroid smoothly, easily, and with very little bleeding. We were all so blessed with gratitude, and just totally allowing the healing energies to flow with grace and ease. Ed showed up for a conformation that Michelle went in and came out with flying colors. On the park bench, as we all were together embracing our answered prayers for Michelle, Ed says “Meg- Look on the lawn next to you.”
Immediately my heart filled with so much joy and amazement as I turned around and saw a huge monarch butterfly. I yelled “Anthony! Anthony! Mom came to be with all of us, how beautiful is this?”

It is still too cold for the monarchs to be here. The weather has been fluctuating between 40 and 60 degrees; they don’t even show up until it warms up. But in my heart I knew that mom came to say “Michelle is going to be fine; let go of the outcome, I hear you loud and clear, I hear you loud and clear.”
We all patiently waited for her return to her room again for her body to rest and return from another OR visit and to focus our energies to assist in healing Michelle.

After a day of complete rest I sent more emerald green, Arch Angel Raphael energy into her body, as well as all of the Ascended Masters. With the energy that I was sending, I know that she was accepting it. The feet were important to me as well as the legs and hands to suck the great energy in. I was so blessed to be able to help and heal with the crystal energy that Deep Arrow woman taught us. The amazing work- it feels so wonderful to be a part of the larger picture. Embracing the miracle which is between time and space. I am so blessed to see and feel the love and energy felt in our hearts.

Love to me will always be the strongest force in the universe.
Jumped into my car to see Michelle so I was driving 80 miles an hour heading west on 1-84, trucking down the highway towards me on my right was a huge, proud, large single turkey. I screamed out and waved my arm “Get back to the woods, you’re not supposed to be on this busy highway!” I couldn’t believe my eyes but when I thought about, I guess that’s why Deep Arrow Woman named me Meg-many totems.

Hawk Scream
April 30, 2012 (morning)

As I reflect on the miracle that I was a part of, I want to say thank you spirit, for directing me to make the important calls that I did to help and assist in the large community prayer circles with healing words of prayer. The knowing, the trusting, the accepting. I truly am grateful. Thank you.

I am grateful
I am successful
I am divine with one.
Send me what I need to know just for today.

(noon)
As I did my prayer walk asking for guidance from my guides, I came out of the woods to start up our hill and I kept hearing “Just stay calm and know. Just stay calm and know.” Out of the sky, soaring directly in front of me flew the huge red tailed hawk, with the massive wings open and gracefully landing on the top of the pine in our yard. It took my breath away; I was so amazed. I stood there feeling blessed. Next, the red tail just belted out a huge cry as I listened and asked “What are you trying to tell me?” Then it just took flight into our woods. I sat down on a huge rock below the tree and just soaked in the moment with the magic that this bird brings to me. It’s the moment and it’s just what I truly needed for today. I am grateful to you in so many ways.

“The Hawk has a distinct cry, one that most people are aware of. Its cry signifies awareness. If you hear the cry of the hawk use your intuitive ability to discern the message and seek the truth.
If a hawk has soared into your life, you require a higher perspective. You need to see the details of what is going on and look at the bigger picture. Take a look at your situation from above.” (source- http://divinesparks.blogspot.com/2008/04/hawk-symbolism.html)

For all those kindred spirits who want to boost their intelligence, word to the wise…. Don’t rely on Smart Water!

I was struggling to understand and face the demons that have been haunting my fathers mind DAILY, yes created his own DRAMA, Not I, not his children, and not his lovely wife that is here only in spirit. The look in this older man’s eyes as he fears the years ahead leaving behind his old ways, old patterns and old doubts. I knew he did need help if he only would allow me to intervene. Well, it didn’t just eat him up, it ate me up inside day after day and night after night. Stressing, worrying, and trying to understand. Not sleeping. I kept asking “What should I do? Please Help me. I know I’m gifted please help me with this weight that I can’t lift. Let this go.”

Well the next morning I got up and just started to write and write and write questions that I truly needed answers to. I want the TRUTH, I want to know who? What? Where and how???
Just question after question, I wrote them out on paper…
After I reviewed my questions I saw that I don’t understand why people have to live in lies. Not wanting to tell you the truth. TRUTH about the real story. That’s when I said, “Meg, change your attitude towards your approach.” Where and how can I trust? So on that some thought pattern I turned to the Emmet Fox’s book, “Around the Year with Emmet Fox” to the Date of this morning which was March 20th. I almost fell over. The first sentence in the passage read like this.
“Truth never changes, but what we have to deal with on this plane is man’s apprehension of the truth, and throughout historical time, this has been steadily and continuously becoming more plain to us.”
Jesus summed up his truth, taught it completely and thoroughly, on and on it went.
Enough to know that I was being guided to the truth. I just knew. The voices that I heard were “Meg, Make the phone calls and ask the questions, just be truthful and honest with your self. You will hear the answers to the TRUTH. With that intention in mind, guiding me I truly knew I will receive what I am meant to.
Driving to work just outside our driveway as I approached the end of our short street, I saw something out of the corner of my eye. I turned to look at the curb next to the street and I saw a huge, huge red tail hawk with his claws pressing very hard on his prey. I said, “God, please don’t have it be our bunny that I see running in our yard.” As I backed up the car, the huge bird of prey had a dead squirrel in it’s claws and the bird’s eyes met mine. It just stared at me. The yellow eyes penetrating mine, I was face to face with this hawk. He and myself just staring at each other. I’m grateful it’s not our bunny and I said a prayer for the squirrel. Then with energy of this massive bird, a car door length away from me I just sit with the hawk asking, give me your power, give me your strength, and give me the truth. I know you have power, the energy, and you can tear heads off. That’s what I need, help me, please. Taking in the energy from this hawk. I know within my heart the answers that I was seeking, “The Truth” that I wanted to know, would be given to me. Nothing was stopping my mission and I felt strong and courageous to stay on course. I arrived at work and made some VERY brave phone calls with a lot of questions in my conversation. The answers that I received made me feel so at peace. The weight that I was carrying around for years. I felt like I could breath a breath of fresh air. Then I started to laugh because my guides just deal in truth. I know that, but when you have to deal with other people’s drama and you’re NOT a drama queen. It does effect your energy flow and how you live your life. The truth is always easier, and as light as a feather. Remember, if in doubt just be truthful. You will feel light even if the story is uncomfortable to explain. Thank you for sending me the hawk messenger from above, and teaching me TRUTH!

I am grateful without a doubt,
Meg

September 3, 2009

I woke this morning to a wonderful dream that I had. My mother and I were cleaning the bathroom, scrubbing the floor with our hands, scouring the sinks. I noticed a paper-like object in the drain. I said to my mother “What is this?”
“Meg, what is it?” my mother replied.
I pulled and pulled at this paper-like object, and out came a huge black and yellow bumble bee. As I watched it come alive, I felt scared that it might sting me. I wrapped a piece of toilet paper around the bee while I ran to the door to send it back into the world that it came from. When I released the bee it took flight, healthy and whole it flew away. Then I woke, amazed with my visitation with my mother and the bee. Thank you for your little visit,
Your daughter,
Meg.

The hummingbird just appeared in the front of my kitchen sink window. I went outside looking for her gone, gone, gone. How exciting!

July 8, 2011

Ed and I anchored out at Block Island in the salt pond for our week of vacation. We had a fabulous week of swimming, walking, shopping and laughing with our friends. The weather was hot and some times so heavy in misty fog when you work up that your clothes felt damp. That was until the smoking hot sun came out to burn off the haze. I mentioned to Ed that I wanted to walk Crescent Beach to the very end where the beach runs out and the cliffs and stones are there. SO that morning we zodiaced to doggy beach to cross over to crescent beach and walk. We walked along a beautiful sandy soft beach with the emerald water breaking at our feet. I wanted to collect a lot of driftwood pieces and flat stones and other interesting collections that captured my attention. Walking along the beach picking up my treasures, my mind drifted to the time that my mom and I would walk along RI beach picking up these huge pieces of driftwood boards for me paint signs on for my shop. We were both laughing so hard because by the time we got back to our blanket with so many boards our arms ached and then we had to pack them in the trunk of the car and everyone kept asking us, “what are you doing with all those boards?” We just laughed so hard. It seemed like yesterday to me but it has been a lot longer than that.

Well Ed and I reached the end of our walk and Ed sat down on a huge log that got washed up to the cliffs and I kept looking for a few items. All of a sudden out of no where lands a beautiful bright yellow monarch on the mud in front of me. I couldn’t believe it and as I said, “Ed, Ed look at this, can you believe this?” The yellow monarch kept flying toward me, fluttering its wings and flying all around me. The more I said, “Mom is that you?” the more it flew closer and closer and landing on the mud directly in front of my feet. There were no flowers around just a huge mud cliff and a lot of rocks and the huge ocean. I sat down on a huge rock and kept talking out loud. The energy that I felt from this butterfly was amazing love that I felt in my heart that yes, this is “Dot”, my mom and best friend who had come to tell me to take the next step and be fearless. I could hear her say, “Your journey is the butterfly, the red tailed hawk, and all of the beautiful winged creatures that are fearless to soar and take flight. You have been born with this gift to share with the world and now is a very important time to do it. Go for it girlfriend. What do you have to lose?”

Ed turns to me and said, “Meg are you ready to walk back?” Yes, but I kept saying “Can you believe that….can you believe that?” Ed said, “So Meg, who was that?” I know that my Mom just confirmed for me to go for it. I explained to Ed that the entire walk she was so on my mind with the memory of us picking up all the driftwood that summer day. The gift that she continues to send back to me through the butterfly or butterflies is no coincidence. It is my journey that keeps living, loving, healing and sharing my adventures called “life.”

Of course there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t miss her very much, but all the love, laughter and great memories that we shared forever keep me going. The heart knows while the mind always speculates.

Love from your heart. It will never steer you wrong.
This will be the year…

Love you mom!
Your only daughter,
Meg